Monday, July 13, 2009
♥ 情人节
这一年的情人节，下着细雨，一对恋人在雨中散步，这是一件再浪漫不过的是了啊！
“凯，今天怎么这么安静啊？”嘉看到牵着自己手，但一言不说的凯，好奇地问道。
“没什么。”
“哦。”嘉虽好奇，但听到男友这么一说，也不过问，静静地走在他身旁。
他们就这样，走啊走，不知多久后，凯突然停下脚步。
“ 我们分手吧！”说完，他转身离开。她也不阻拦，只是呆呆的站着。
就这样，他们一直没有联络对方，直到3个月后，嘉收到了一封信。
嘉：
我不知有多么希望，这封信永远都不需托人寄给你。
当你看到这封信的时候，我大概已经走了。老天爷就爱作弄人，在我浸泡在幸福中，享受和你在一起的每一分每一秒时，医生告诉我，我得了末期癌症。老天爷想要把我身边的一切夺走，对不起，我没有反抗，我任由他了。
嘉，你还记得那时候，你问我为什么喜欢你，我无奈的说：“爱你不需理由。”其实，我也不知道自己为什么会爱上你。或许我是喜欢你的纯，或许是喜欢你的乐观，或许是你的清澈，或许。。。你的一切的一切，让你轻松的把我的心给偷走。
说我喜欢你，我没资格。我恨我自己。恨自己的懦弱无能，恨自己一直没有向你坦白，恨自己让你受伤。
为了不让你太难过，我选择了欺骗。
我不是伟大，我是胆小，窝囊。我不亲口告诉你因为我害怕看到你伤心流泪，因为我害怕你知道后放不下。我选择了在情人节当天伤害你，我想让你狠下心来，结束这段感情。
对不起。
嘉，你是一个很好的女生，你一定能找到一个更适合你的男生，我将一直守护着你，希望你能幸福。加油！
凯
Labels: essay
Sunday, July 12, 2009
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She found out the truth a little too late. He insisted on her. She was all he wanted.
♥ You can have him.
Once, she felt that she was rational.
That day, everything changed. She found out something she did not want to. He did not belong to her alone. When she confronted him, he said: “Whatever.” That word ended everything. It ended all her fantasy; it ended her fairytale. She was convinced that she irritated him with her willfulness and absurd reasoning. The many things she did were proven to be unacceptable. At least, that was what she thought.
On the other hand, she, the one who came in between them, was gloating. Her victory is what she deemed worth celebrating. She succeeded in pissing the girl off; she succeeded in proving how inferior the girl is compared to her. Politeness, rationality, kindness, helpfulness, all these, she proved to have excelled compared to the girl.
“Thank you for convincing me of how inferior I am, thank you for showing me how incompatible both of us were. You can have him.”
You can have him. It meant her disappointment. Disappointment in him not standing up for her after witnessing her being ridiculed, disappointment in him who had left so abruptly at the moment when she needed him the most. He walked away, that angered her the most. Is that what he is suppose to do, walk away? Leaving the girl he said he loved to experience it alone, leaving her to be insulted by his ex-girlfriend. Leaving her feeling that she needed some verification of her place in his heart. All she wanted was the place.
She felt that he should have understood the feeling. She felt that it was similar to what he had felt when he saw her with another guy. Though verified but the uneasiness will not cease. He should have known it the best.
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Wednesday, February 25, 2009
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hello peeps:D currently having two blogs for the time being LOL. this blog will probably be with the essays i am writing when the inspiration strikes me:D
updated:12-july
